No. It will never be enough. -Ellen Base

 

No. It will never be enough.

Exercise will never be enough.

Sweat dripping with every active running minute.

Every bar I lift, no matter the weight level, I go till my body physically can’t.

 

Mindful healthy eating will never be enough.

Bottles on bottles of water I pour down my throat.

Bite after bites of broccoli, salads, turkey filled subs, without the best part; the bread.

This confidence I fight for daily must be something I make break through this feeling of never enough.

 

You can never have enough confidence.

Confidence is not just within how you look, but within who you are as a person.

My curvy body sticks out like hills of a mountain

With my stretch marks lining a path for the hikers choosing to climb the mountain.

 

Counseling sessions I fight for daily with hopes

That the minutes I spend with a counselor

Will connect to me for me to change into the better person I am striving to be.

I don’t want to keep lying to myself with the, “I am who I am,” speech.

 

Years and years of trying to be a certain person.

You realize, enough is enough.

I am me because of what I have been through,

And not because of what someone else has been through.

 

It is time for me to take my own lead.

Confidence is something I must strive for above and beyond.

Beyond others opinions and preconceived beliefs of me.

Beliefs I struggle believing myself.

 

But, who cares what others say about me?

I am me.

And no one knows me better than I know myself.

People struggle to grow, I know I do.

 

No. Enough is enough.

It’s time for change.

-B