A skill that I would like to learn is positive attitude/self-talk towards myself. I am great with providing a positive attitude towards others in relation to positive communication, for example, providing compliments or supportive comments. I am eager to help support and provide resources to help others whether it be for professional reasons or personal. I like to utilize mental health advocacy especially when it comes to a positive attitude as I strongly believe in the notion of never knowing how a small gesture might change a person’s mood. I believe in positive attitude contributing that such as a polite hand gesture like a wave, a smile, a compliment, holding a door open for someone, or even asking someone how their day is going and following it up with attentive listening.
I know it is a struggle within myself to utilize a positive attitude. It feels much easier to turn towards negative self-talk. The negative self-talk leading to discouragement, vulgar language, and repetitive cycle of self-loathing. I find myself in a pattern of starting off with asking myself what is wrong with me or what it is that I am doing. I am quick to pick apart what I am doing especially if it could lead to a positive result. I find myself avoiding looking in the mirror as my perception of myself, especially in relation to my weight struggle, leads to tremendous negative self-talk vs positive self-talk. This utilizing words such as fat, ugly, disgusting, a whale, etc. It is so easy to pick yourself apart when seeing the ugly or negative side of yourself especially when these attributes have been pointed out to you through your life.
I am wanting to make the choice to recorrect or redirect myself talk into a positive attitude positive self-talk. I would like to learn this skill in order for me to turn a page. I would like to learn this skill and utilize it by creating positive affirmations, writing positive key words or phrases on my mirror, teaching my mindset to use positive words first instead of negative. I am at a point in my life where I want a change in my mental health and attitude as the negativity has led me down a dark whole riddled with depression, loneliness, and a repetitive unhealthy eating cycle. I know that, for me, positive self-talk will be easier said than done, but it is a skill that I am eager to learn.
Escaping Reality and looking within 