I am finding myself in my early thirties tired of struggling with mental health issues. The feeling of isolation that is deep rooted with loneliness, depression and a strong feeling of feeling lost. There have been several experiences, including traumas, that have led me towards this strong feeling of exhaustion and depression. A spiral that at one point was out of control. However, I spent the last few years believing that I was too old to get help or to start over as I graduated with my bachelor’s degree years ago and was in a counseling center program for several years. I realized and surrendered recently to therapy.

I have no shame in going to therapy. I feel therapy is powerful, helpful, and as painful it is to relive experiences, especially painful or traumatic ones, I remind myself of the healing process that will come. I am tired of spiraling and struggling. I am ready to help the little girl inside be heard and get the healing and love that she desperately deserves. It has been an interesting and painful experience so far as experiences are surfacing that I am now learning are considered as serious traumas which then explains years of anxiety, abandonment issues, trust issues, emotional immaturity, and a plethora of trauma wounds creeping up without my awareness.

I am also back in school working towards a master’s degree in psychology to become a Board-Certified Behavior Analyst. I was a Behavior Technician for an Autism center last year and I fell in love with the job, but I wanted to be able to my client further and to take more of a leadership role in being able to help create and implement intervention plans, data collection, and analysis of progress. Thus, leading me to decide it isn’t too late to go back to school and have a fresh career start. It’s been a difficult process with both going on at the same time, but I feel it has been helpful in keeping me motivated. Therapy is beautiful even though it has me feeling vulnerable and raw at times, but it’s a great way to remind myself to be kind to myself through this process.

It’s never too late. Be Kind to yourself. Allow yourself to heal. ❤