I have had this fear of not being intelligent enough for as long as I can remember and it has hindered me through a good portion of my education and into my adulthood. I am not sure where it stems from, but I feel it has held me back or I have caused myself to […]
I remember my first week at my university. I was a freshman in college, 18, and an English major. I grew up in a single parent household, with two older sisters. No one in my immediate family had been to a university. My oldest sister had been to culinary school, but she commuted, and her […]
Each new wave of depression moves like sadness rainy with tears, wind blowing exhales, and cracks of thunderous internal screaming. Internal screaming reaping with pulls and scrapes of lengthy hair strings twisting through a tornado ridden storm. Each new wave of depression flatlines with numbness flatlining of loneliness, hollows of blank darkness, and thickening layers […]
A skill that I would like to learn is positive attitude/self-talk towards myself. I am great with providing a positive attitude towards others in relation to positive communication, for example, providing compliments or supportive comments. I am eager to help support and provide resources to help others whether it be for professional reasons or personal. […]
There are three jobs that I would consider pursuing if money didn’t matter and they would be an author, teacher, or therapist. I would love and have always wanted to become an author. I have had a passion for writing since I was a young girl. Writing has always been an outlet, an escape, and […]
I have been reflecting on old pictures lately of me at over two hundred and twenty pounds. I have come so far in my weight loss journey that some days, it’s hard to believe that use to be me. I am the girl in those photos. Overweight, unhealthy physically, unhealthy mentally, and not a […]
Your dark outlined figure follows me everywhere And yet, I only see you when there is light. Your outline appears smaller and rounder on top, Slimming for a hint, then wide and robust in the middle. Your end completes itself with two scrawny sticks that move. Every move you make mimics mine. Raised arm, […]
No. It will never be enough. -Ellen Base No. It will never be enough. Exercise will never be enough. Sweat dripping with every active running minute. Every bar I lift, no matter the weight level, I go till my body physically can’t. Mindful healthy eating will never be enough. Bottles on bottles of […]
Oh, Spring Lake, Your mere presence sends chills down any one’s spine. Even in the evening, the cotton candy sky with white marshmallow puff clouds Reflect off the still, rippling, calmness of your body. A young girl sits upon one of your many docks Staring out into the self-freeing ambience of you. She gazes […]
Escaping Reality and looking within 